I Know if You Look For Me, I'll Look You In The Eye

[paradisaeaseven]

 this is gonna be really pathetic and i hope my friends dont see it. btu i really fel like my friends dont like me sometimes and are just keeping me around so i dont get sad. i dontknow. i think im the most annoying person ever and whenever i try to make plans i get so sad that they have other things to do i always try to make plans and nothing comes out of it.iknow its not their fault they're busy and i feel bad whining about this.ifeel like they have friends that are better friends than they are.i remember them boasting about the party they were having and when i nudged them they said i was specifically not invited for not being close enough or whatever idont know. i feel like the guy who's jsut there and weird and loud and unimportant and annoying. i.jshdkfjsdf.
i dontknow

idont knw if people even like me anymore or if theyre jsut pretednng. i want to be out of this school forever